Well hey there, how are ya?
It's been a while, I know. But we felt it was time to sit down and touch base with you and let you in on some of what's been going on with OTWH and what's been going on with us. Well, I'll share a bit about what's been going on with me and let Jaime come back and share what her world has been like lately.
So most of you already know last year kinda rocked my world a bit. After all my thyroid issues were resolved (well let's be honest, when you have your thyroid removed its kinda a long journey from there) a couple months later my Dad died. Now, I realized a lot about myself during this time. One being that I can really dive into something and focus on that one thing as a distraction. That can be both good and bad. Good because it helped me stay sane. Good because I threw myself into work stuff and got a lot done (actually I totally re-did our website during this time so that was very good). But not so good because I didn't really allow my soul to process my thoughts and emotions.
You can probably guess how that turned out.
God finally broke me to the point where I could no longer pretend I was whole. Pretend probably isn't the right word because I don't even think I realized what I was doing. I look back at this experience, at 2016 (aka the year that sucked) as truly one of the biggest blessings in my life.
God showed me during this time that I didn't really believe. I mean believe believe. Do you know what I mean? Like I believe God, I believe he is gonna do what he says he is gonna do, but I didn't really believe he meant that for me. Like for everyone else, yes. For me, no.
And the crazy thing about this is He had already blessed me big with 3 miracles babies. But what I was doing was believing the lies more. The lies that the enemy was telling me. Lies that I didn't even realize I had been told and even believed because they were rooted so deeply inside me, they effected every sub-conscience decision and thought I had. So there was the battle. The battle I didn't recognize happening inside. Who I believed myself to be verses who God says I am.
But God is so good that He wouldn't allow that to go on. He's so good that what he was doing for me, as much as it hurt, was breaking the chains I had around me that I had no idea were even there, pulling me down, holding me back from so much...so much MORE! I could've lived the rest of my life living the way I was living. Loving God, reading His word, praying, seeking Him but still wrapped in chains. And God said No. He wants MORE. He wants the ABUNDANT life for me! He promised us that. And I NOW can say with 100% of every part of me that I believe that promise of an abundant life includes me too....